Things I would like to get back / Emuna Shoham

 I would like to get back the ability to be happy from simple things. From going to school, from meeting people, from getting a good mark on a test. I would like to get back my imagination. To play playmobile when the characters have superpowers like flying, running really fast, turn invisible or shriniking items and they live in a place that everything can happen, no matter how unreal it seem. I would like to get back the ability to be mad at someone and show it to him. When someone making me furious, show him all my anger and not keep it inside. I would like to get back the ability of feeling loved and desserve to be loved. To do not get jealous when my favorite teacher is talking with other students. I know that she loves me, but it's hard for me to feel that when she's paying attention to other students. I would like to get back the ability of not saying "I'm fine" although I totally not. To ask for help. To cry. To stop sweeping my feelings under the rug.